So I am leaving out on a family reunion. Eek. Can I just say I’m so nervous, anxious, and excited. Sometimes families can be a stressor. Mine is sometimes. I just recently got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and some of my family members dont know how to take it. They dont understand it. Sometimes I dont understand it myself.
So how am I gonna ease these feelings? By listening to music, painting, and surrounding myself with people who love me.
I have my medications ready to go. I have everything in order for this trip. Yet I still feel all those things. So what us eating at me?
Well, first off, I do not want to have mental breakdown due to the mental overload I’m about to get. And secondly, when I am around my family I am very, very manic and then I crash hard. The crashing is what I’m afraid of. What if I crash and have a mental breakdown because of it?
I just have to remember to breathe and take it easy. Take one thing at a time. I’m so sorry if this post is a little scattered. I’m scattered myself. But thoughts, concerns, comments?